Isn't it Ironic?

This is my horoscope for today: Trust your heart to know who is being sincere and who may have an ulterior motive. Trust your heart to know that a choice you are now making based on emotion is just as valid as any. You should also trust your heart to lead you into something that other people might consider too uncertain - because you know what's best. The only time you will really need to trust your head over your heart today is when it comes to a money matter that has been causing you a headache for some time now. Once that's resolved, everything else will be a cakewalk.   

It's so ironic to me when my horoscope actually applies to my day. Today has been one of the oddest days I've had in a while. I mean it was a typical day but the conversations I had and decisions I made all goes into what my horoscope mentions. I had a long conversation with my sister about my father today.... this conversation led to another 3way conversation with my sister and my aunt on the same subject and some other family things. In the midst of my conversation with them my mother of all people calls me. So I click over to have a talk with her.... for her to tell me that my father requested her friendship on Facebook. How Ironic is that?!?! Fast forward a bit and I'm talking to my aunt and sis again... for my mother to call me back AGAIN (very very strange because I'm lucky to hear from her more than once every month or so) to tell me that she is sorry for my father. Wait, what?! Was the only reaction that I could muster.... She basically apologized for us having a deadbeat father... How is all of this coming up sooo randomly in the midst of a conversation I am literally in the middle of with my aunt and sister?! Is my phone bugged or something?! Shortly after all of these conversations, my father sends me a message and literally for the VERY FIRST TIME PEOPLE, APOLOGIZED to me. I was 12 years old when my parents divorced and he left... after almost 15 years, and in the middle of everything I just mentioned, he sends me this message.... I'm so very baffled! I spoke with my sister again tonight and said to her 'maybe its not a coincidence... maybe its supposed to be this way.' Thats the only thing I can think of... I mean, someone is trying to tell me something, they are literally trying to smack me in the face with it, I think. lol. How can it not be obvious?! 

I'm basically putting everything in my faith, closing my eyes and jumping into this head first. I believe in God, and I believe that God has a plan for each of us. I truly think someone's trying to tell me something, I'm listening for the first time, and it feels right. 

p.s. Another bit of irony... The song 'You Saved Me' by Kutless is playing in the background as I write this. 

I'll close for now while pondering the things that leave me scratching my head .lol. *scratch scratch*

Interesting Horoscope...

Let your anger go, Aries. No, not just the anger stirred by a recent event. Let go of that, but also let go of all the anger you've been harboring. It doesn't matter why you got angry. It doesn't matter whether the matter has been resolved. It doesn't even matter if the issue is unforgivable. Let go of any hostile, bitter emotions you have now, and let go of feelings of revenge while you're at it. It isn't about the other person/people involved - it's about you. Your life will dramatically improve when you make room for peace, harmony, and serenity.

Interesting that this was my horoscope.... I do have a lot of bitter emotions about my past and have a lot of anger and resentment. I have been trying to work through them for years. Letting go of all of it, especially what all me and my family have been through is easier said that done. As a christian, I know this is something I definitely need to do... but its not easy. Sometimes I feel like I have let it all go and then there are days when things come back to me and I just get angry again. Its hard to forget things... its like that saying forgive but never forget. Thats sort of how I feel... but thinking about it... how can you truly forgive someone, if you never forget? Because to me... when you forgive someone but what ever the betrayal was comes back to you in your mind.. doesnt it still upset you, causing you to be right back in the same boat you were in at the beginning? I thought the whole point of forgiveness was resolving it, period. Not to be reminded of it ever again... putting it in the past and leaving it there. I think my trouble is actually forgetting or understanding forgiveness in the proper context. Maybe I think I have forgiven but in all reality I haven't fully done so. I don't know. Its just complicated....

With Love,

Andrea

An interesting coincidence?

Could this be just a coincidence, or is there really something to horoscopes? Its just really odd that this particular horoscope pretty much responds to my previous blog post about throwing in the towel...

Even if you think that your chance of succeeding at a certain dream is slim, you need to change your way of thinking about it. A slim chance is certainly better than no chance at all, isn't it, Aries? If you reach for that slim chance, it immediately becomes bigger once you've grasped it. Then, when it's in your hands, you have the power to make your chance bigger and bigger, to make connections, to open doors. Think of the all of the wonderful possibilities. Don't think about the barriers, or the difficulties. You can achieve what you want.

With Love,

Andrea


p.s I had to share this garfield pic cuz I thought it was hilarious. =)